Searching for answers...

   Today I'm going to Lily Dale.  In case you've never heard of it, the link is right here! Lily Dale is basically a small grouping of mediums, and clairovoyants who live in a community. Over the summer, and sometimes in the fall, they hold many "workshops" (if that's what you want to call it). These workshops range from group readings to spiritual gatherings. I went last year, and ended up getting a reading done during one of the group readings. Although I didn't get contact from the person I wanted, I did get in touch with my great uncle. This year, I hope to get in contact with the person whose most made an impact on my life. I also hope to get some answers to where I'm going in life. Wish me luck!

Fall is coming!

   Fall is the season of change. New school, new clothes, new people, new life. Especially this year. Today, I randomly decided to rape my bank account and buy some awesome clothes. I really did need them, though. Oakley, Macy's and Gap were the epicenters of my spending explosion. Fall is my favorite season for new clothes because you can wear pretty much anything. It's comfortable enough to wear a sweater and jeans. And closer to fall means closer to my birthday...All I want is clothes. The next few months are my favorite.  October = birthday and Halloween, November = Thanksgiving and Black Friday, December = CHRISTMAS! Needless to say I will be one happy camper in the coming months, especially if things go the way I've planned with school and a certain someone.

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Moving forward...

   Yesterday was the last day at my job. It was way more depressing than I thought it would be. I've grown to love my job and especially love the people who I work with (most of them). I can't imagine not knowing some of them and not having some of the experiences we had together. I know it sounds lame, but it's the truth. I didn't want to leave. But it really was my time to go. It sucks because I sort of feel like I'm never going to see any of the people there that much, but I have to move on.
   Today was also my first "goodbye" get together. I went out to lunch with a few friends, two who I haven't really seen in a long time. It was nice to catch up, but it was also strange that it's the last time I'm going to see them for a while. I know that I'm really only going to keep in touch with a few people. It's sad, but it's the truth. I hope I can keep the positive people in my life, and make room for new people who can make me just as happy.

Video of the Week

   Lil Wayne & Nicki Minaj - Knockout: Once again, Nicki Minaj proves to me why she is my favorite new artist. I hated this song the first time I listened to it. I'm not a huge Lil Wayne fan, and especially not a huge Lil Wayne as a rock artist fan. But I just love how the song sounds with the mashup of their voices. And I love even more how Lil Wayne is in jail.

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Quote of the Day

"Good friends, good books, and a sleepy conscience. This is the ideal life."
   

Thinking...

   My last day at my job is on Sunday, and I don't want to leave. I love my job despite how often I say "I don't want to go to work today." The people who I work with have become some of my best friends, and I've had some of the funniest moments of my life happen at Jim's Steakout. But as much as I'm dreading leaving, I think it's my time to go. I've had a lot of fun there, but it's time to move forward and focus college, and the future. I've been there for two years and two months, the longest out of anyone, and it's going to be really hard to just leave. But, I'm so excited for school to start, and to start a new chapter in my life. I guess I'm going to be jobless until I return for the holidays, but I need all the time I can to concentrate on school and being the best I can be.

  

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Quote of the Day

"When you run from something, it only stays with you longer. If you fight something, it only makes you stronger."

 

Starting Tomorrow...

  I'm going on a mission to change a lot. I've been thinking about it for awhile and I've realized that I want to make a few changes in my life. Starting with how I treat other people. A lot of times, I'm impatient and I flip out for no reason, and I really want to change that. I want to start treating my family especially better, because we get into fights the most. I also want to live healthier. I'm going back to working out everyday, and eating a lot healthier than I have been in the past few weeks. I think that college is going to be a lot more enjoyable if I am a better person, on the inside and out. Wish me luck.
  

What's on Tonight

   Tuesday night is the one night that I refuse to go out. I blame the Bad Girls Club. Tonight is only the second episode, but one girl is already in danger of going home.
   On tonight's episode, Morgan comes home to find all of her bags packed for her, and sitting outside. All around the bags are signs posted saying "Go home, whore." Behind the prank is none other than my favorite Season 5 bad girl, Brandi. After that, a brawl ensues where Morgan swings at Brandi, which causes mayhem to ensue. Brandi and Erica attack Morgan, pulling her down the stairs by her flailing legs, and start hitting her. The rest of the episode revolves around the aftermath of the fight. I hope to God that this is the last we have to see of Morgan.
 

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Quote of the Day

"Fall in love or fall in hate. Get inspired of be depressed. Ace a test or flunk a class. Make babies or make art. Speak the truth or lie and cheat. Dance on tables or sit in the corner. Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride."

I've been watching this on repeat for about an hour...

 

College Update

 
 I can't believe I start college in a little over two weeks. And with two weeks to spare I decided to change my major to Business Administration with a specialization in Marketing and a minor in Popular Culture. Sounds cool, right? I'm way more excited about it than I was for psych. I really don't think I could handle biology, chemistry, and physics. My hate for chemistry is never ending. Most of my classes will be related to business, economics, and things that don't involve dissecting dead animals, which is always a fun time.
   I want to get my masters degree in Business Administration and hopefully work for a company as a marketing executive, hence why I'm specializing in marketing. I'm minoring in popular culture because the classes are interesting, and they're all about how society views the media. These classes will hopefully help
me become more aware of what people want to see and will help me in marketing.

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Quote of the Day

 "I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren't covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love, and I'll return to a person I love. So, that's the dream I'm working on."  

Hot Music Video of the Week

Hothothotness. Three amazingly attractive girls in a psych ward. This might just make me switch back to majoring in Psych...Psyche! I'm lame. Admit it, the song is catchy too. It's called "Maniac" and it's by that Pussycat Dolls hybrid band Girlicious. I suggest a name change but whatever, they sure do look good.

College Update

   For the past three or four years, I've been dead set on getting a Masters degree in Psychology. I've always felt that psychology was going to be the right path for me. But today, after a long talk with my uncle, I had a realization that I might not want to go into psychology. Instead, I'm starting to lean towards going into Business.

   A degree in business has actually appealed to me for a long time, but I never really looked into it, or gave it a chance. Today however, my Uncle Billy told me he thought that I should go into business. If anyone else would've said this, I wouldn't have taken it seriously. But my Uncle is one of the most successful people that I know. He sat me down and talked to me for a few minutes about what he does (He has his degree in business) and I started to think that maybe business is for me. I'm quick. I can talk my way out of anything. I know when to be tough and when to be serious. And I'm not a push over. Another reason why I felt strongly about what he said was that I didn't want to go to his house today. It was my one day off in over two weeks. I had plans with my friends and I honestly complained the entire ride there. I actually was going to stay home. But I went, and I think I went for a reason. 

   I've been sort of questioning the whole psychology thing lately. It's pretty hard to get a good job with a Psychology degree unless you become a doctor, which takes way too much time. Instead, my Uncle explained to me that I could get my Masters degree in Business Administration in about five to six years, compared to becoming a psychiatrist in at least 8 years. Luckily for me, UB has a program where I could major in Business Administration with a specialization in Marketing, and minor in Psychology still. I couldn't be more excited about this, and I really do think that I might make the switch from Psychology to Business.
   

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Quote of the Day

"Things change and friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody."

Photos of the Week

Note: I do not own, nor have I taken any of these pictures. Photos in this post are simply pictures that I've found online that I thought looked interesting.

Guilty Pleasure

   I'm crazy about Kanye West's music. Ever since "Jesus Walks," I've been hooked. Unfortunately, Kanye is an asshole. I've always thought this. But after last years VMA controversey, I feel like I shouldn't like Kanye at all. Unfortunately for me, he keeps putting out amazing music. So here I am, hating Kanye as a person, but loving him as an artist. A clip for his new video "Power" premiered on MTV last night, right after Jersey Shore (Great placement, Kanye!) And I just might've forced my best friend to watch it with me. Judging by the video, Kanye still thinks he's somehow related to Jesus. But, it's a pretty original song, and I love the chanting in the background. We'll have to wait and see if Kanye can bounce back from last year's Anti-Kanye movement.



  

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Do It

Video of the Week

   Ke$ha is really hot in that "Wow what a dirty slut" kind of way. She's grimy. She's sort of trashy. All of her songs are about parties and waking up in the morning feeling like a rapper, but at least they're fun.
 
   Her new video for "Take It Off" is really no different from her past videos. She's at some sort of weird party, dancing around and trashing the place, this time by using crushed up pastel chalk. (Innovative!) I  really will try this one day. Click the link below to check the video out.

Ke$ha - Take It Off

Quote of the Day

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."  

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Word of Wisdom

Don't be a Squidward.

Nobody likes a Squidward.
  

Guilty Pleasure

The Bad Girls Club might just be the most amazing show on the air. Seven trainwrecks fighting, drinking, and causing chaos...How can you go wrong? Season 4 might never be topped, but season 5 premiered last night and I can't wait to see how it unfolds. I already have my two favorites picked out, Brandi and Lea. But I'm sure the whole cast will not disappoint when it comes to bringing the craziness. Here's a sneak peek.

Quote of the Day

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them."
  

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Favorite Song of the Moment

   Diddy hasn't put anything (good) out in a long time, but this song "Hello Good Morning" is too awesome to pass up. His new group, Dirty Money puts together himself, Dawn from Danity Kane, and a singer and rapper named Kalenna. When I first heard the song, I was not a fan. But give it a chance, after a few listens, it sticks in your head. There are a bunch of remixes to the song, the most popular being with fresh out of the slammer, T.I.

   My favorite version of the song is the collaboration with Rick Ross, and one of my new obsessions, Nicki Minaj. She's a complete psychopath, absolutely bananas, but she's so animated that it works.

No Longer a Blogging Virgin.

   So after 234879 years of wanting to start a blog, I actually did. This is my blog, The Ringleader. Why The Ringleader? I don't know why! I wanted to incorporate my name, but there aren't many fun or interesting words with "Chris" in them. CHRIStianity, CHRIStened, CHRIS...I'm not religious, so there went that idea. And somehow along the way, The Ringleader popped into my head, and I stuck with it. Grab your balls, this is going to be fun.

 That's me on the left. And the fox next to me is my Mom. I probably don't look anything like this picture in real life. (It was before prom) And, I look like a psycho/serial killer in that picture on the right side of the page, but you'll deal.

 This following is probably the most formal I'll ever be on this blog, so after this generic "hello" blog, you'll get to see the real me. So, here it goes.

   I'm 18 years old, born on October 3rd, 1991. I've lived in Buffalo, NY for my entire life. It's not a bad place to live, despite what a lot of people think. In a few weeks I'll be going to school at the University at Buffalo (UB). UB wasn't my first choice, but I'm actually really excited to start school there. I had a surprisingly awesome time at orientation and met some really interesting people. I'm majoring in Psychology, and I hope to make my college experiences a common theme in this blog.


As far as hobbies go, I like a lot of things. Listening to music is one of my favorite things to do. I listen to mostly mainstream, top 40 type of stuff, (lame, I know) but whatever, it makes me happy. I listen to the majority of my music at the gym, which leads me to my next hobby. I like working out. Whenever I'm having a bad day, a nice workout session is really all I need to cheer me up. With working out comes eating. I love food. I'm a pretty good cook, and I work in a restaurant called Jim's Steakout. Food service really is everything people say it is, but all the craziness makes for good conversation. Besides listening to music, working out, eating, and working, I spend the rest of the time with my friends. And when I say I have the coolest friends, I mean it. All of my friends are important to me, but there are four who I couldn't live without.

Wubbs is the friend that I have no doubt in my mind, that I will be best friends with for my entire life. He's honestly one of the funniest, most down to earth people I've ever known. We've been best friends for about 7 years. Our fathers were also best friends when they were kids too, creepy. We are sort of ridiculous when we're together, always making stupid noises and faces and doing things we wouldn't dare do with anyone else. He kind of looks like Justin Bieber, what an asshole.

Emily is the friend of mine who I never could've imagined that I would be friends with. We're so different that we're alike, if that really makes sense. We have completely different interests and hobbies, but we share the same sick, twisted, sometimes odd sense of humor. I've never met someone who I can laugh with about the most ridiculous things. I call her a serial killer a lot because she works in a haunted house, and is obsessed with Halloween, but I really do love my Emily, no matter how many bodies she's hiding in her closet.

Now there's Maureen. My token ginger friend. She's pale. She has freckles. She has red hair (dyed blonde because she's ashamed). She's Maureen. Maureen is one of the most hilarious people I've ever encountered. We met because of our mutual hate for half the people in our gym class back when I was a junior in high school. If I hadn't have met Maureen, I honestly don't know where I'd be, or who I'd be. She's one of those people who knows when it's time to be funny, and when it's time to be serious. She can make you laugh for hours and comfort you when you need it. She also has more freckles than there are stars in the sky. I love Maureen.

And last but not least, there's Dave. Dave is the friend of mine who I fight with a lot, but he's also the friend of mine who I've learned the most from. We're complete opposites in pretty much every aspect of our lives, but that's what makes us such good friends. Dave and I got introduced when he moved into the house next to my grandparents. A few years later, he transferred to our school district and we became good friends. Over the past few years, I've really gotten to know and love Dave and I'm so glad we've become such good friends. We also hate all the same people, so I think our friendship is going to work out OK.





   Well, there you have it...my first blog. Probably the only one where I'll sound this eloquent, if that's how I'm even coming off.